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I just
heard from Jerry, Diane said as I came through the door. He says to tell you
that hell be gone all morning, but hell be here by noon, and lunch is okay.
Thanks,
Diane, I said. I walked into my office and turned my computer on. In my inbox there
was a message from the software guy, telling me that he could come into the
office at eleven, and would I please confirm by e-mail. I did so forthwith.
He
came in at eleven-fifteen, while I was working on the divorce papers of his
friend the writer. Sorry about the delay, he said. I was coming up from
Cupertino, and there was a delay on one-oh-one.
No
problem, I said. I explained to him the slight changes that had been made to
the agreement, and he took no issue with them. Would you like to take time to
read over all the paperwork? I asked.
Absolutely.
In fact Id like to take it out and read it in my car, all alone. Do you mind?
Go
ahead. Just be back by noon, or else after one.
I
think Id rather take more time rather than less, so make it after one. I want
to get it right this time.
Of
course, I said.
He
got up and took a step toward the door, but stopped and turned to me. Though,
if truth be told, he said, it was the raw deal that I got on my first divorce
that made me go out and work hard, and get to where I am now.
So
maybe, in retrospect, you got it right the first time.
I
guess so. Anyway, thanks for all your work, and Ill see you in a couple of
hours.
Take
your time, I said.
After
he left, and while waiting for Jerry, I listened to a little more of the
Roberts hearings. They were strikingly uninformative, with the nominee giving
nonanswers to nonquestions. About two minutes into the break, Jerry knocked on
my door and entered without waiting for me to answer. Listening to the
hearings? he asked.
More
like nonlistening to the nonhearings, I said. Jerry laughed.
Over lunch at Petes I decided to wait with telling Jerry
about my personal issues until after I had brought him up to date about Andy.
So hes Saint Thomas, not Saint Andrew, Jerry said. Big deal. And if I meant
it sarcastically when I said it, I withdraw the sarcasm.
I
then told him about Andy and Libby. Looks like Ive lost my chance with her,
he said.
If
you ever had one, I said. Jerry laughed. Except maybe as a lawyer, I added.
I mean it. Theres a lot of real estate in the portfolio, some of which shell
have to liquidate, and she might use your help. Are you going to be in tomorrow
morning?
For
Libby? You bet.
Okay,
then Ill introduce you. There, now that weve talked business, I can deduct
this lunch.
We
ate silently for a while, and then Jerry, after a long swig of his beer, asked,
But what did you really want to talk about?
About
woman, I said.
Woman?
A woman, or women?
A
little bit of both.
Go
on.
First
of all, I should confess that Libby has had an effect on me too. Its not
simply a matter of having the hots for her; its more like an obsession. Its
like
I feel like a mortal in the presence of a goddess.
If
you believe in goddesses, thats part of your problem right there.
I
know. Of course, shes a flesh-and-blood woman like any other.
Only
more so!
But
whats happened is that she has affected the way I relate to women in general.
One thing she did, which I think was positive, was to open my eyes to my
relationship with Margo.
You
mean, to the way youve been manipulated all these years?
You
knew?
For
Gods sake, Gary, Ive known her as long as you have.
Almost.
By
a month. Anyway, even back at Boalt some of us used to call her Manipulatin
Margo. But since you were comfortable with it, I never said anything about it.
Thanks,
I said, not sure whether I meant it sarcastically or not. But theres more.
Of
course there is.
I
recently met a woman that I think I like, and I think she likes me. But having
Libby on my mind has affected the way Ive courted her.
Courted
her? Gary, you must be kidding!
What
do you mean?
Youve
never courted a woman in your life, that Ive seen. Youre a nice guy, fairly
attractive, and fun to be with, so sometimes women fall into your lap, with no
effort on your part, if they decide that thats where they want to fall.
Doesnt
that happen to you?
I
dont let it. Even if a woman acts interested, I court her like an old-fashioned
virgin. Believe me, in the end its much better that way. But you, my friend,
very frankly, dont know how to court a woman.
I
courted Margo, didnt I? I mean, I added, knowing full well that there was no
courtship involved in our initial coupling, when I got her to marry me.
Gary,
you didnt court Margo. She was with me, just before she went off to Europe,
when she decided that she wanted to get married, and when I asked her who, she
said, Im not sure yet, but probably Gary. I was surprised and said Gary!
She said, I think hes got potential. After she came back she said, Ive
decided on Gary. So how are you going to go after him? I asked. Jerry
paused for effect.
What
did she say?
She
said, me, go after him? No, Ill get him to go after me. Thats why you think
you courted her.
Manipulatin
Margo! I said. But tell me, why were you surprised when she said my name?
I
just didnt think you were ready for marriage. I mean, we were all, like,
twenty-three, and I sure as hell wasnt ready.
Were
you ever?
No,
but at that time I thought that some day I would be, just not then yet. For a
girl it was different, even a liberated girl like Margo. Her sisters had been
married by twenty-two.
Margo
made a big point of that, that she wasnt like them. Thats why she went to
Mills, not Stanford.
Yes,
so she waited till she was twenty-three or twenty-four. Jerry laughed again.
By
the way, I said when the laughter ended, when you said that Margo was with
you, do you mean
Yes.
You knew about me and her, didnt you?
Of
course I did. And about all the others.
All
the others?
Yes.
She told me that there were lots of others.
Thats
what she wanted you to believe. Actually there were a few, maybe two besides
you and me.
I
didnt know what to say.
Anyway,
Jerry said, just so you get your moneys worth out of the lunch that youre
buying me, lets get back to this new woman. Lets give her a name
Her
name is Chris.
Okay.
Chris. So you think that you messed up your courtship of Chris because you had
Libby on your mind.
Precisely.
So
having Libby on your mind prevented you from making Chris feel that shes
special
In
a way.
From
bringing her flowers, from making up a special name for her, from kissing her
hand
I
dont know.
Thats
quite a progression, from precisely to in a way to I dont
know. You understand what Im saying, dont you?
Yes,
O wise man. And I humbly thank you for your generous teachings. Jerry smiled
to show me that he knew that, despite my facetious tone, I was sincere.
So
what do you think of Roberts? he asked.
Im
scared, I said. Check, please! I said to the waitress.
In the afternoon I finished preparing the draft of the
Qualified Domestic Relations Order for the retired professors second wife. The
next step, I knew, was to contact Margo, who presumably was doing the same
thing for the first wife, and iron out the differences. The sobriquet Manipulatin
Margo was going through my mind, with a ta-DA-ta-DA-ta-DA-DA rhythm that soon
began to acquire a melody, and it tried to turn into a song. But what rhymes
with Margo? Cargo, largo, embargo
My mind went on to other thoughts, and
specifically to my upcoming dinner with Andy and Libby. I would call Margo
tomorrow afternoon, my mind decided, after the work with Libby was done.
It took me less time than I had expected to get to the
restaurant and find a parking space around the corner, and I was at the table
beside the street-side window reserved for Andy Stone at five minutes to
seven. It was five past seven when, as I was reading the menu, I heard loud
voices just outside, and realized that they belonged to Andy and Libby, though
I had never before heard them raise their voices. But they quickly reached a
diminuendo, and all was quiet when they came into the restaurant. When they saw
me, smiles appeared on their beautiful faces. They did not look at each other,
and they were not holding hands.
I
would be polite, I decided, and I would not ask them if they had had a spat.
But my decision proved moot.
We
just had a fight, Andy said, half cheerfully. Our first in thirteen years.
It
was just as stupid now as they were then, Libby muttered.
Is
it settled? I asked.
Yes
and No, said Andy and Libby, respectively and simultaneously. Andy laughed;
Libby did not.
Do
you need some time to work it out?
Theres
nothing to work out, Andy said. At least, not in the short run. He looked at
Libby at last, and she smiled as though involuntarily. Shall we sit down? he
asked her. She did not answer, but sat down facing me, and he sat beside her. A
noticeable distance remained between them.
It
had been five days since I, too, was in a verbal date fight in a restaurant. I
was curious about how my young friends would resolve theirs, as I was sure they
would.
It
turned out to be not so much a resolution as a dissolution. Gradually, almost
imperceptibly, as the dinner and the conversation wore on, the ice wall that
separated them at their entrance melted and evaporated. After a while they no
longer stopped their arms from brushing against each other and, by and by, from
folding about each others backs.
They
were in love, still in love or again in love, after all these
years, with their first loves. An old Argentine tango has the line siempre
se vuelve al primer amor, for which on a song-translation website I once
found the translation (which I needed, strangely enough, in a divorce case) first
love makes one always come back again, a version that is not too literal
but that rhymes, more or less, with pain, just as amor rhymes
with dolor.
After
a while the warmth that emanated from them engulfed me so that I, too, felt
myself to be in love, inside love, inside the mystical substance of
love, without feeling that I was in love with anyone.
It
was only when dinner was over and the waitress brought the check, which Andy
imperiously grabbed, that the cold front returned. I surmised that the spat
might have been over the detail of who would pick up the check on this, the
last night before Libby was to become a multimillionaire.
Thanks
for a wonderful dinner, I said, addressing Andy but not showing it overtly. I
then reminded Libby that we had a big day on the morrow: a trip to the
Courthouse to receive the decree, and introductions to Jerry Brucker, Paul
Stevens and Walter Cantelli for help on matters relating to the estate. Ill
be there, she said under her breath, with a sideways glance at Andy that bore
the barest hint of a smile.
Jerry proved surprisingly restrained and businesslike in Libbys
presence; it was as if that presence in a high-necked but very tight-fitting
blue dress was too much even for him. After a somewhat stiff handshake of
introduction, he limited himself to reviewing the real-estate portion of the
schedule of assets that Paul, with the help of an appraiser who was an
associate of his, had prepared, and recommending which properties were the
ripest for liquidation in order to meet Libbys need for cash, primarily to
meet her estate-tax obligation and secondarily for fees including mine and
her personal needs. Jerry expressed his opinion that the current bubble was
peaking, and that the properties to unload should be the residential ones,
including, first and foremost, Peters spacious house, while the commercial ones
ought to be kept. Libby thanked Jerry for his advice and promised that she
would retain him as a consultant.
So
thats the famous Jerry Brucker! she said after Jerry went back to his office.
You
know about him?
Remember
the time I had lunch with Diane and Felicia, after my first appointment? Of
course I remembered, though I had not known that the name of the broker who had
just come out of Jerrys office was Felicia.
Yes,
of course, I said.
He
really is sweet, just as they said. What it is about Jerry that women find sweet
remained a mystery to me.
And
very smart.
Im
sure of that, Libby said with a smile. Libbys smile: thats whats sweet,
I said to myself.
At
the Courthouse, George Mandros secretary had a stack of copies of the decree, all
certified, ready for us. George was busy, so that we did not get a chance to
thank him in person.
We
next went downtown, where Walter Cantelli waited for us in his office. I gave
him a copy of the decree, and he in turn brought out a sheaf of papers that
Libby was to sign in order to become the owner of those of Peters assets that
were his sole property, while relinquishing the others to the Randall Museum
Association and to Thomas Anderson Stone, respectively.
We
had lunch in a restaurant on Maiden Lane, and I let Libby pick up the check.
Lastly, we went to visit Paul Stevens in his office. Paul showed Libby a draft
of the Form 706 that he had begun to prepare, but they agreed that more time
would be needed to go over the entire forty-page form and the thirty pages of
instructions. Paul explained that they had until the following May to file the
form and pay the tax, but Libby expressed the feeling that the sooner the
better.
I
hope you can manage without me for the next week, I said. Im going to Hawaii
tomorrow. I vaguely remembered having told Andy and Libby about my upcoming
trip over dinner, but I did not recall having told Paul.
Well
just have to muddle along, Paul said.
I
like muddling, Libby said in a way that made Paul and me laugh.
Back at the office, after Libby had left, I finally called
Margo. Of course she didnt answer, and I left a message saying that we needed
to coordinate our clients QDROs, but that I would be gone on vacation from
tomorrow until the end of next week.
She called late in the afternoon. I did not
pick up, but listened to her message. She had not begun working on her clients
QDRO yet, but she would do so next week, and we could get together the
following week. Have a nice vacation! she concluded.
What
kind of vacation would it be? I asked myself while driving home. Other than
some hiking, ocean swimming and snorkeling, I did not think of much to do on
the Big Island. I dont play golf or tennis, and I had no interest in visiting
any of the observatories on Mauna Kea. What, then, would I do during my free
hours?
Providentially,
at the very moment the question was going through my mind, I passed near Office
Depot. Of course: I would buy myself an ultra-lightweight laptop computer, take
it with me, and, by expanding on the notes and snippets of dialogue that I had
scribbled, begin to write a narrative a kind of retroactive journal of
everything that had happened over the month that had passed since Peter Harts
death.
I
parked, went inside the store, and found a salesman. I told him what I needed.
Is price an object? he asked.
No,
I said, surprising myself by how spontaneously I blurted it out.
Then
I would recommend a ThinkPad. They used to be made by IBM, but now theyre made
by Lenovo, and this new model X41 is spectacular. Less than three pounds, and
fully loaded, except for an optical drive. But its around two thousand
dollars.
You
mean a CD drive? I asked.
Thats
right, but theres a memory-card slot, he said. You can get a memory card
that holds one or two gigabytes, more than a CD would.
Ill
take it, I said, knowing that when my credit-card bill came due, a significant
part of my fee from the Peter Hart estate would have been paid.